mind cleared up

I thought
I got my mind cleared up enough
But this time I was wrong
I thought I was about to write the words of our song

Got some fancy drinks,
but I didn`t seem to get drunk
My memory drew pictures
of a sudden goodbye
Very likely I failed to understand myself
when I expected to die

I thought
I got my mind cleared up enough
but this time I was wrong
I was about to write the words of another person`s song

Fortunately I didn`t
Fortunately things turned out well
Never being rid of you was one of my fears,
Just be a dear
Never remind me of this,
Just be a dear

I think
I got my mind cleared up
This time I`m more than right
Ready to write another one
in a drop of reflected light